I hate waffling. The back and forth of any decision. The making of a choice and then revisiting it to make another, and possibly another choice later. That not knowing what to do or say, so you don’t do or say anything.
I’m making a hard decision. It’s one that I’ve struggled off and on with for two years. But it’s the right one for me.
I wish I was a better blogger, I really do. I have plans of what I’d like to do here on this site. I have so much I want to write about and stuff to share, but those are more page related than blog post material. And I so don’t have enough hours in the day to be consistent.
There is just too much I should be doing, have to be doing, and need to do. Blogging isn’t one of the top priorities. Lately, it’s been right down there with writing.
How sad is that?!
I’m a writer who isn’t writing. I’m a writer who isn’t fulfilling my dream by writing the damn book! I’m procrastinating right this second to write this post when I know I should be working on plotting Death’s Lover before I have to go feed cows, get hubby ready for work, and format an interior book layout for a client. And those are just the daily things, not the massive 3 page list of things I need to do or the half page list of things I have to before the end of the month. Almost makes me want to crawl in a corner and go to sleep.
Hahahaha… Sorry, the lists have nothing to do with the need to sleep. That comes with hubby’s shift change and no longer being young enough to function on 4 hours of sleep. Or possibly I’m crashing from the caffeine/coffee and Peanut Butter M&M high of yesterday’s binge. Either way, I’m going to need a nap today, though it’s more likely I just be heading to bed early tonight.
This is possibly another reason I don’t blog much. As much as I would like to make this blog reader friendly and stay away from the writing related articles, I’m not sure what to write about. I know that sounds funny from the woman who makes an okay living from her books, who wrote a whole post on making a website/blog reader friendly, and who has been blogging for 8 years.
I mean, who wants to hear me talk about my day? It’s not really that interesting. I sit around most of it, writing on my current work-in-progress, planning and plotting, or creating book designs, then it’s carrying for family, the ranch, and cleaning house. There is the occasional trip to town which I attempt once every 3 months.
I might be a little quirky with my opinion and observations. I might say things here that make you laugh. But is it something you would want to read?
I figured the book related posts would be better, however, I noticed this strange trend. When I make a book related post here, no one comes by to visit, but when I make the same post into a page, its read 100 times more often.I think my time is better spent creating book-related pages instead of posts.
So where does that leave this blog? In the same place I keep returning to, either I make it a news feed and post when I have something newsy-related to say, or make it a journal of thoughts?