I started this writing journey to write books, to share the stories clamoring in my head and demanding to be told, to bring to life the characters and worlds that I see in my dreams. I didn’t start down this path so that I could be stressed out of my head, made to feel guilty by not doing “what I have to do” to sale books, and neglecting my other responsibilities.
Lately, the only thing I’ve been doing, is running around in circle trying to carve out enough time to run this business I’ve created, which seems to equate to barely having the time to answer emails, read some blogs posts from blogs I enjoy, keep the finical books, and trying to promote the books I have out in the world. There is just not enough hours in the day.
I don’t have time to read. I don’t have the time to write. I don’t have time to edit or rewrite scenes to a story that desperately need the work. At this rate, nothing new will be published. Prudr is back from the beta reader, and I want to have one last read through before it’s published, but with everything demanding my attention, I don’t have the time. I haven’t even touched Loving the Goddess of Love. I’ll be lucky if I do before the end of the year.
This is bad. And I know that I need to do something about it. But what?
That’s what this break has been about. I needed to know what I could drop, what I couldn’t, and what I needed to focus on. I got my answers. My creativity is being stifled by all this bullshit. It’s all clear to me that I’m wasting my time on things that don’t matter to me, and apparently matter to others.
Before anyone starts to think I’m talking about my writing, I’m not. I’m taking about the time wasters that are keeping me from writing the next book, creating a backlist, and publishing. All the little extra things are going.
I don’t care if it’s not popular choice. After all that’s the story of my life. I don’t care if money-making gurus out there say otherwise. It’s not as if they are really paying attention to what I’m doing. All I care about right now is doing what I love. And what I love is writing.
So if you don’t hear from me in the next little while, don’t fear. I’m just working on what is important to me. 😀